So stressed out and tired right now. Never enough money, never enough time, never enough self-esteem. I NEED that holiday! I just want to see my family again, to relax and chill out and remove myself from "the daily grind" as they say because I haven't really had a break for ages, I haven't been to Russia for ages and everything else doesn't count. I think that if I don't have one soon, I'll be firmly on track for a nervous breakdown because when I'm angry or upset or stressed, I vent and lately I've been posting all over my online journals (blogspot, myspace etc) and spilling my guts but not properly; the only thing that stops me is that I still hate people knowing everything about my private life.

I've got my own user area on Craig's computer now, now THAT is dedication! I'm nervous about leaving him for 2 weeks still but I suppose we'll see the outcome when I get back, he's picking me up from the airport as well. Aww. Sometimes I really love him and sometimes I really hate him.

Either way, I'm really looking forward to going. I miss it quite a lot. I'll probably be really bored but it should be quite fun at least to some extent. And I'm bringing back cancer for everyone! Hopefully I can be irresponsible with money that my grandad left me. Holiday forms have been approved both by work and school.

Aww he just texted me and said he's dreading me going away! Only because he'll probably be bored though. Homofag. Hehe.


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